My week wasn't without frustrations - I struggle with seeing people who have the capacity and ability to do stuff and not try when I so often try to do whatever I can and I have obvious physical mobility issues as well as a condition that could make or break me in a less safe activity. And realistically, there may well be some good reasons for not trying for these people but sometimes it felt like excuses and all I wanted to say was "Take a leap of faith. Risk it. Get over it. You'll be ok. You'll have fun." Ah, but I need to have grace and I need to see things from their perpsectives. I, of all people, get that new and "risky" activities are scary when it comes to potential broken bones so I'm sure others have their reasons and their legitimate fears.
I also struggled with, and nearly backed out of, going white water rafting because the walk from the bus to the river was long, I was tired and thirsty, it was hard walking with the booties we were given (and they were too big for me), and I knew that I had had surgery just six weeks ago and really hoped my body would hold up. I had been white water rafting before, and that time, our boat nearly flipped and we paddled the whole way, even through the big rapids (class 3's and 4's). I didn't know what came over me, but I nearly started crying. That was odd. I was struck by an intense wave of emotion. I'm glad I went white water rafting, though. This time, it was easy. For the "big" rapids (which were WAY smaller than the previous trip) , we didn't paddle through rapids but were told to hang on. We didn't have to paddle the whole time either like the last time I went (on a different river). The rapids were tame compared to the last trip too. The pictures look like it was crazy. But it was crazy fun! :)
Another good thing from the trip - maybe I will have made some new friends that can be part of my friends circle going forward. I felt like I connected well with several people at the camp.
Maybe this kind of ministry, or even this kind of work - working with individuals with more of a developmental delay than specifically mental illness - is a direction I should consider. It brings joy to my heart to see the innocence of some of the individuals and the balance of trying to learn life skills and apply them in the capacity each one is able to, and the challenges of connecting with those who struggle to be around others also was rewarding. It was so awesome to see pure joy in the faces of the campers when they experienced nature or tried something new and did it successfully. On the last day, one of the individuals who tended to stay several metres from others when possible, actually spoke to me. It was like a little gift. Those moments are so rewarding.
Click on the pictures below for a bigger view!
The Elkwood Ampitheatre |
View from the lodge through the window |
Just a note, I can't post pictures of individuals here (except for the rafting pics which are were all taken by Chinook Rafting - with permission to share on social media), so the pictures posted are mostly of the views and nature. All pictures other than the rafting pictures were taken by me.
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