One week since injury

It's been one week since I fell. I had a splint/cast thingy on until Friday when I saw the doctor. Now, I don't have it on anymore for 2 reasons - 1) I had a rash from the cast (or I believe that's what it's from). 2) as my elbow joint was damaged, it's important to move that joint early. So, all I have is a sling that I should wear to protect my arm when around other people. The sling is not comfortable, but I did wear it at church today and I've worn it some this weekend.

I am thoroughly bored. The internet seems boring. TV seems boring. I have been by myself much of this week. I can't drive anywhere or use my wheelchair or scooter independently. But I have enjoyed the relaxing, in a way. I have been reading some good books and learned from these books - learned about forgiveness and history and about waiting on God. Other things I have learned is that I do have a support network. Often, I have thought that I wouldn't know what would happen if something bad happens to me out here ... I don't have a partner and I don't have family here. Some people who I thought I could lean on, I have found I can't, and others came through for me. I guess that's the same always. Sometimes I have thought that I need to have a partner, someone to be there through thick and thin, in the long run to get through the rough things of life. I guess, for now, I have learned that that is not necessary. God will provide for our needs - provide the people as we need, the things, and yes, even in my case, my daily bread. I think it was an important lesson to learn or else I would probably be very disappointed because no one person can be all to someone. I have heard it before, but the books I've read this week and the calmness I feel in that respect, have helped me with this.

I have, once again, learned to depend on God for providing my needs and and that it's ok to need help. Boy, do I hate having to depend on others. I can't even cook meals for myself - only microwaveable things. Doing household chores is difficult or not possible. The hardest thing, though, is not being able to go about as I please. Having to ask for rides or for help getting around. I will need help in the next few days with my dishes and with taking out my garbage. And, probably soon, with some clean up again. Someone today told me she hates people who are needy. That's one of my fears - that people will see me as 'needy' and resent me.

Today, some friends were going to come over, but things came up and nobody came. I know it's not a personal thing, but when I've been by myself a lot this week, it's harder. I'm glad for my friends. I'm glad for the meal I got today to take home from church. And the home made cookies. But, today, I really wanted to play games. Do some socializing and have a bit of fun.

I don't know what will happen with work this week. I don't know if I will go back and work half days or just work a couple half days, or none at all. And I still need to find out when I can take time off to go to Manitoba for Christmas.