The job ... or not

Today, I got a call back from the place I interviewed at. The lady told me she would have loved to work with me and she wants to do what she can to make that happen, but they had to hire someone with more experience, aka, internal experience. We had a good conversation and she really felt that I would be a good asset to the team. I got to work and found out my co-worker, the other OT, got the job. I knew she had applied based on tiny comments. I kick myself that I provided an answer to her. But, no, I shouldn't think of it as that. She got it fair and square ... she was internal as she had been doing a couple shifts here and there for mental health after quitting her previous job. And I'm ok with that, really. But it does sting a bit that it came down to just me and her. I'm glad they wanted me. During the interview, they told me that policy says they have to hire internally if there is a qualified internal applicant, i.e. if the qualifications and experience match. This lady was not obligated to speak with me in person about her thoughts on the hiring or that she wants to work with me, but she wanted to tell me how impressed she was and what a pleasure it was to meet me and have that interview. Networking is a good thing. And gaining experience with interviews is probably good.

I prayed about it a lot this week. I felt really good about the interview. I wanted the job if it was offered ... not because I want to leave where I'm at but because the job sounded like an interesting challenge. I had made peace with where I am for the time being. Of course, I'll keep my eyes open and, when the next interesting opportunity unfolds, I will go for it. Unless things change drastically and positively for the good where I am now. There must be a reason I'm still where I am. There must. There better be.

That being said, this has thrown the whole team into yet another loop. I can totally see more people quitting with this. I wonder what WILL happen. My workload will get WAY bigger. And this week, there were so many suicidal people and it seems the gang activity has become pretty serious. I hope people are safe this weekend.