Feeling a little lonely

I'm having a bit of a lonely day. Maybe everything is just feeling a bit overwhelming. What I want is someone to give me a hug. Why is it that the only times I get hugs is when people are saying good-bye or when something bad happens? Sometimes I just need a warm hug ... without the bad. Without the good-bye. Without bad things happening. A hug to say, "I care".

Maybe this feeling is fueled by the fact that every co-worker that I know was invited to my co-worker's birthday party and I wasn't. Maybe it's the impending stress of knowing I'll be the only OT left at work and it feels like my voice won't be heard and there will be heaps of extra work to do. Maybe it's because today we had a farewell lunch for another co-worker and my ex-boss was there and gave everyone a hug but me. Maybe it's because I saw so many hugs given to my co-worker, the other OT who is leaving ... it made me think about good-byes. I have good relationships, but I'm not part of any clique. I wonder how many people would give me a hug. I know there'd be some ... but why do people have to wait until someone leaves??? And, although things haven't been good all the time, I will miss her. We did have a decent working relationship. I don't know when I can go home for Christmas. I don't know anyone sticking around at Christmas.

I just want a friend tonight. I'm a little sad and lonely. But for right now, I just wish I had a friend here in Calgary that would give me a hug. Just for the sake of giving me a hug.